the rot has to stop

incredibly amazingly futile

countless attempts have been made..or have they?

what is wrong what is wrong what is wrong what is wrong?

time to wake up

better sooner than later

seconds minutes hours days weeks months years

this cannot go on. fight the power.

clerks I and II/ and his royal freshness shone some light onto everything

what would it take honestly? what would it take?

something's got to give

am not the same as when I was 15. responsibility. decisions. conflicts. revolution evolution but no real solution

if only everything were that straightforward

Doctor prescribe me a day in the life of someone else

lazy

unmotivated

scum

pointless

unworthy

lacking

sloth

eradicate

irradiate

improve

eliminate

get out get out get out get out

break the threshold

is a little more determination.

or rather... a WHOLE lot more.

a little more good fortune. a little more money. a little more time. a little more... oh well you know the drill.

step up step up step up dont ever come down again

day is night and night is day

whatever may come along the way

fingers crossed, toenails too

it'd be great to be a fool

i remember reading an email about quarter life crisis (quite akin to the mid life crisis we love to hate) and lately i'm beginning to feel the jitters.

theres just too much on my plate right now and i'm having digestional problems. i went to the places i used to go and realised i can't hang out at those places anymore.. time has passed.. and slowly it dawned on me.. time and tide really waits for no man.. or woman for that matter..

accetable behaviour? appropriate dressing? i'm over a quarter century old.. body is taking its toll..

this is some scary shit. but then again.. so are most of the things that happen to ordinary people. i am unable to function on the same plane as the rest of you. and i wonder why? seriously.

deal with it you pussy

another rejection email.

sometimes you just have to accept that you aren't good enough.

But why?

Especially when there are other undeserving people out there.

Life's not fair. We all know.

It hurts, don't it?

there definitely has to be a better way of using the time that we have

help

sometimes you wonder if what you like is really what you want

or what you want is really what you want

not making any sense? don't worry, i get that a lot.

the past week has been both physically and mentally draining. i wonder if i'm really cut out for this. theory is definitely not equal to reality. its not even full battle stations yet. the avalanche is approaching.

decisions. decisions. decisions. theres too much on my plate now. simply too much. and i am crumbling once again.